A personal transformation made public . . .

I had the unique opportunity to be in San Fran for the PayPal Dev Con. It’s interesting in these hard economic times that there is still a bunch of money to be made out there. The juxtaposition of everything was highly apparent as I made the transition from watching economic news in the hotel to the unbelievable amount of cash PayPal puts through their system daily. It’s somewhat interesting that I was able to be there 160 years after the initial Gold Rush that brought people out to that state. So, I look to the internets and say “there’s gold en them thar hills”.

As far as the people, I had a wonderful time reconnecting with old friends and making new ones along the way. I got to explore the city alone, and, for the first time in my life (as far as I can remember), I was happy being by myself. I felt no pressure, no anxiety. I did whatever I wanted to do and couldn’t care less what people thought of me. And, it brought me to new friends and new adventures that I wouldn’t have experienced otherwise.

My mother always told me not to push the river, let it flow. I think that fits pretty well for that trip. Instead of forcing things to be a certain way, I went (literally sometimes) in whichever direction felt best at that time, and it was amazing. The difficulty now is trying to incorporate that in other forms of life, such as my hard decision to move to Florida. I’m still unsure about it, but I feel there’s a huge amount of momentum behind it at this point, and I have a large net of people ready with open arms to greet me when I get down there. We’ll see how that works out. If it seems ok, I’ll start some other experiments.